I found a letter written in pen, and i'm not sure it was ment for me, but either way the questions i will attempt to answer as accuratly as i can. I'd like to know who wrote it, and what their answers are.
Are you more likely to be inspired by:
1. The Presence or absense of Contentment?
A. The Absence for certain. Nothing inspires me more than discontent; like i've said before, Guilt, is one of my main motivators in life, for better or worse it seems, i have alot of it, so you could say i am quite motivated.
2. Personal situation or Social conditions?
A. Not sure i understand this one completely, but i'll say Personal situations, i really live for that spark of connection, or understanding, or more accuratly (since true connection/understanding is all but impossible, given our separations, language, upbringing, culture etc; from each other...) whole hearted attempts at understanding.
3.Interactions with Humans or Non-humans
A. With humans for sure, though it is exhausting and i find myself enjoying and needing interactions with nonhumans more and more, plants are quite nice... animals, god i wish i still had my JC kitty, or Bean.
4.Rest or Fatigue.
A. I work and create so much better strung out, exhausted, tired, over worked, over wrought, comfort is death. that being said, i like to get a sold 12 hours of sleep in whenever possible.
5. Sobriety or being High?
A. That's a tricky one... it all depends on the high, marijuana traps me in a feedback loop of negative thoughts, most downers just make me sick to my stomach. The uppers are a fan of mine, but altogether i would definatly say i'm most inspired when i'm sober, or maybe a little drunk.
6. Joy or Sorrow?
A. Sorrow... definatly Sorrow.
7. Culture or Nature?
A. This is complicated question as well, and i'd have to say both, as for me the separation is only in our minds, we like to think of ourselves as humans as some sort of separate thing from nature and therefore what we create as not being part of it, but i tend to feel that even if so much of culture is vapid and ugly, it is still part of nature. I guess i find inspiration in both, i love trees and water, i need to spend more time with them, but whenever i see some kind of new art, or music or performance, i'm also so invigorated... it's all in there i suppose.
8. Familiarity or mystery?
A. That one is also tough, i guess i'm a bit of a dualist, because i'm inspired by both, i love having my own home again, it's a safe haven for me, i like knowing where i'm sleeping tonight, and that i have a job that's going to pay the heating bill, but after a while it stagnates me and i have to move onto something new or else i loose all sense of wonder... i guess i feel inspired most in the moments traveling between the two extremes.
9. Production or Consumption?
A. Production for sure, with one exception, Eating. i love to eat good food and it's so inspirational to sit and eat a delicious meal, it says to my body (not my brain) "Life is Good." But i also love to cook, and to cook for people.
10. Past or Present
A. This one is wopper. I may need to write this one up another day... I'll say for now, Past... Though, to be fair, the past for me weighs much more lightly than i find in most people, and for that i'm over joyed... seems like most people have some kind of halcyon days they go to, and for me, life has just gotten better and better every year, even if more complicated and bewildering.
11. Facts or Feelings
A. Feelings, duh. Facts are boring and changable, at least feelings are fun.
12. Anger or Pity?
A. Pity... i don't get angry very often, except at myself... but then i take pity on myself and feel better. I wouldn't say i'm inspired by either though.
13. Yourself or Others
A. Others, for sure... i've got a long way to go before i inspire myself
What inspires you?
UPDATE: Todd Speaks! (Read the Comments, it's to long to post here.)
Further more, here is a link to an absolutly amazing R. Crumb comic about Philip K Dick's pseudo-religious awakening, it's unbelievable, and i'm sure everyone saw it cause it's on BoingBoing, and i try not to grab shit from there cause it's kind of redundant, but this needs to be read. it's Soooo Good.
Happy Birthday Michelle!